Hi Jay: Your words are timely as this morning I got up thinking on these things and after I fixed my coffee, I sat at my computer and noticed there was activity on this thread, so I opened it up, and the words you shared helped settle my mind and get me on track for today.....so an earnest thank you for taking the time to share them with me.
My husband was home for a full week, detoxing and sleeping almost around the clock, but when he would wake, we would talk, and he was promising to do the intensive outpatient (pretty much 5 hrs every day of the week) program we have nearby. He also asked me to recombine our life (auto policy had been split due to him being gone, etc), since he was home to stay.....Then, out of the blue for me (maybe not so much for him), I had somewhere to go and when I returned, he was gone, and has been gone since, with no word from him.
When I came home and realized he was gone (I had expected dinner since that was our plan...he was going to grill the chicken).....the Lord spoke two words to me as I walked into the door of my house.....STAY THE COURSE.....that was His instruction to me. I am and have been working on a few things with myself....like complete abstinence from sugar.....it's a drug to me since I am a diabetic.....and I have loved my sweet tea, but I promised my husband we would both do everything we could to live well for ourselves and each other, and I gave up my tea and anything else with sugar in it in order to meet that goal. I am still on course.....I did not need "feed feelings" or do anything else destructive as a result of my husband's choices......I am walking with the Living God regardless of circumstances....it is my choice....and God spoke to me......which is SUCH A BLESSING.....THANK YOU LORD THAT YOU ARE HERE WITH ME AND ALLOWING ME TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU IN THE MIDST OF MY LIFE AND TRIALS....BLESS YOUR HOLY NAME.....YOU ARE FAITHFUL, YOU ARE WORTHY, AND I LOVE AND ADORE YOU.....YOU ARE THE GOD OF PEACE AND YOU BRING PEACE UNTO MY LIFE.....BLESS YOUR HOLY NAME.......
I have never eaten much, so even though I have had my own sugar addiction going, I have been able to maintain the same weight (I do have extra). I am now losing the extra and getting healthier....it was my goal and promise to my husband....to give him my absolute best me......
I have to share this. From the time I made that promise to my husband and turned from sugar and unhealthy eating of all kinds, I have been FINE......no severe headaches, withdrawals.....only very modest cravings or temptations.....(saw some m&Ms and almost stuck my hand in the bag, but I remembered the Lord's words to me and CHOSE TO stay the course. I turned and walked from the bag of M&Ms and had no regrets.....My desire to eat them was only about my rebellion to my husband's actions and my wanting to destroy our good plans....not because I was truly craving sugar.
Sugar is one of the most addictive substances on this earth.......There is a reason I am talking about this right now.....read this.....
According to a new research study, refined sugar is far more addictive than cocaine -- one of the most addictive and harmful substances currently known.
An astonishing 94 percent of rats who were allowed to choose mutually-exclusively between sugar water and cocaine, chose sugar. Even rats who were addicted to cocaine quickly switched their preference to sugar, once it was offered as a choice. The rats were also more willing to work for sugar than for cocaine.
The researchers speculate that the sweet receptors (two protein receptors located on the tongue), which evolved in ancestral times when the diet was very low in sugar, have not adapted to modern times’ high-sugar consumption.
http://articles.mercola.com/sites/artic ... caine.aspxI have heard of stories of others giving God their addictive substances, be they drugs, porn, sugar, cigarettes....whatever.....laying these on the altar, walking away and never looking back.........
I never had ENOUGH FAITH to even consider something like that.....and to be honest, I think I had doubts when I heard those stories......not huge doubts, but there was something in the back of my mind....looking back.......
I have had periods of my life when I walked closely with the Lord, this is not the first time I have truly turned to Him. I have been with the Lord for many years....since my 20s.....by my own choice.....and it's all been wonderful.....but this time, and given the place I was at, and sermons I heard telling me to give it all to Him again.....this time has been very intense all the way around......and in every way, and on every level, God has shown up and as some like to say when this happens.....shown out.......
I don't doubt Him at all, and I am not doubting me, either.....I am trusting Him fully as best I can, and when I slip in the process, I repent (if needed), and or just get back to trusting Him fully again......all day, every day.......and I have His Peace in me.......I just do.