I know, I know, I know, that a spirit of fear is not of the Lord. Okay, I've addressed that one. But does anyone else seem fearful of the what's coming?
I read and reread to prepare or not to prepare. What can you do, what shouldn't you do? Bottom line. My husband and I have 5 small children, ages 9 and under; the youngest 5 months. When I go to bed I think about the what ifs. I wonder if I could do more. Perhaps will I have to leave suddenly and all of my prep will be for naught. OR, should I prepare more and have it for those who will come when I am gone? Yes, I know that the Lord will provide, but doesn't he also direct Husbands to provide for their households? Shouldn't we provide for our children so that the chaos of the moment is lessened b/c they are not hungry? I want to care and nurture my children. Perhaps it is the mother in me that worries about these things. I have told my husband that I keep having this "fear" that we've been raptured and I can't find my babies in heaven. (btw, our 2 oldest have given their hearts to Jesus, the others are 3 and under.) I know, I know they won't be "babies" as such... ugh.. HELP, is there anyone else who feels this way? I don't mean for this to be a biblical debate, I just want to know that when I go to bed @ night and think about my little ones that I'm not crazy or unbelieving; but that's it's just the mother in me. It's not that I don't love Jesus or that I don't trust that heaven is a safer and more wonderful place than this horrible sin filled world, but I can't help but be a bit saddened that I won't see them grow up. I keep looking @ them and thinking that my "time" with them is short. I love being a mom and want to know that I get to have that job in heaven....
Please don't dogpile me... doesn't anyone else feel overwhelmed with this insight? I often wonder why G-d has chosen me to carry this? I feel @ times like Moses. Why me Lord? Someone else could carry this Truth better than I can...
















