Help me to find him

[lookingforhim]

I want you all to know how important you all are.I found this site in March of 2005 and have been studying every day since.I need help to find Jesus.Something must be wrong because I can't feel him.I know he is there but I think I must be doing something wrong.I've asked him into my heart and want to follow him but but I don't know what to do.Nothing seems to change.I've confessed my sins (wich there are many) and asked for him to help me to be right but still nothing.I want that personal relationship with him but I can't seem to find it.I welcome any advice that any of you might have,until them I will just keep looking for him. <p></p><i></i>

[blessedayers]

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Sweety....have you considered that just maybe....your not seeing His work in you? See without Him you wouldnt have gotten this far....<br>
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Your part in all this is believing that He meant what He said...that who so ever believes in Him...will not perish but have everlasting life.<br>
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He came for the sinner....not the saint. He takes us just as we are and works with us from there. Can you look back...and see evidence of that in your life?<br>
It is not in us to seek Him and His ways...<br>
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Im the biggest sinner of us all....and was living a life of complete darkness when He stepped in and touched my heart.<br>
I was at the end of my rope literally at that point....and I cried out for Him to reveal Himself to me so that I had a reason to go on living.....and He did.<br>
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If He will do it for me....who had only a glimmer of faith at that point....then He will surely do it for you. <br>
I had to be still and wait for Him...and knowing all the while that He is God....and that this was a promise to those who seek Him. And asked Him a question that only He could answer.... I have never doubted His love for me since.<br>
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I have doubted my walk with Him...but never have I doubted His faithfulness to me. I fall short all over the place every day....I do what I shouldnt...and dont do what I should.<br>
But...like you ...we here are all a work in progress.<br>
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Isa.34:16a,Matt.13:52, 2Tim 4:2<br>
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A false witness shall perish; but the man that obeyeth shall speak unchallenged. <br>
For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist.Pro 21:28 Luk 21:15<br>
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[WhiteH2OWoman]

Looking, I know what you mean. It's usually not like you feel some big WHOOM right there in your heart.

Keep talking to Jesus in prayer, whenever you feel the need, even in the middle of the day. He's listening. He may not always answer, but it's like the old song says, "Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers."

You're on the right path. Keep walking it, keep reading, keep praying... and the forest you're walking through will draw back and you'll be walking in the light.

I support you, and welcome you to the body of Christ!

To everyone else, I'm back! I couldn't remember my old name, it was something like whitewater, so I re-registered. I missed all of you and have been reading the board.

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[Abiding in His Word]

WhiteH2OWoman
back!

[OBXBob]

WhiteH2OWoman!!

Blessings,

Bob

[Salty Skipper]

step by step...prayer by prayer...as you draw near to Him, He will draw near to you.

[Be still]

Hi Looking,

Read Psalms for awhile...it always draws me closer to Him.

Also read the Gospel of John

[jonah33]

Dear looking,

i wanted to really know God too... but i never understood why all those ppl at church lloked happy and i would sit in the pew wanting to kill myself and listening to thoughts in my mind saying god is conceited and all this **** the eenemy was trying to bombard me with... i htought i was saved.. i had "asked him into my heart", i had been baptized... i read the bible... but low and behold it didnt apply to me for some reason i thought since Jesus died for me and to save me from my sins i could use him as a safety net to keep on living like ****....

i never fully understood the meaning of the cross and Jesus' death until i became so sick of myself... and the things i had done, my life.. i was looking for ways to kill myself on the internet, i had starting drinking agin after 5 years sober.... i knew there was a God but I did not believe he would help me and i did not have trust in Him.. i trussted in ppl more than God.

finally God put me in a postion which i am so thankful for... that made me totally alone and i had to depend on Him He was my only chance , my only hope..

i finally saw all waht my sins were for... why Jesus had died to save me... and you.. i understood grace.. i understood the law and the need for Jesus so i wouldnt have to pay the debt for the things i did, Jesus paid my debt.
i gfinally trust Him, h ave a realtionship with Him liike i alwasy wanted in a person!!! he gave me a heart of flesh and took the stoney one out... He changed me!!! something that was impossible for anyone to do..

sweetheart i dont know how it happened, i could not force it! it was a gift from God, faith and trust was a gift from Him, His love and His life is a gift... all i know is He held on to me all those years until the right time to pick me up before i destroyed myself anymore... it took that so i could completely rely on Him.
the Lord is awesome!!!
if you have any questions you can write me back or check out my myspace... has a bit of my testimony on it.

[Abiding in His Word]

jonah33

that made me totally alone and i had to depend on Him He was my only chance , my only hope..

Psalm 34:6 This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him And saved him out of all his troubles.

Psalm 18:6 In my distress I called upon the LORD, And cried to my God for help; He heard my voice out of His temple, And my cry for help before Him came into His ears.

[jonah33]

Yes He did!!!! I love Him sooooooooooo much!!!

[mizbayakh]

i would sit in the pew wanting to kill myself and listening to thoughts in my mind saying god is conceited and all this **** the eenemy was trying to bombard me with... i htought i was saved.. i had "asked him into my heart", i had been baptized... i read the bible... but low and behold it didnt apply to me for some reason i thought since Jesus died for me and to save me from my sins i could use him as a safety net to keep on living like ****....

i never fully understood the meaning of the cross and Jesus' death until i became so sick of myself... and the things i had done, my life.

finally God put me in a postion which i am so thankful for... that made me totally alone and i had to depend on Him He was my only chance , my only hope..

i finally saw all waht my sins were for... why Jesus had died to save me... and you.. i understood grace.. i understood the law and the need for Jesus so i wouldnt have to pay the debt for the things i did, Jesus paid my debt.
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i htought i was saved.. i had "asked him into my heart", i had been baptized... i read the bible... but low and behold it didnt apply to me for some reason i thought since Jesus died for me and to save me from my sins i could use him as a safety net to keep on living like ****....

Hi - your testimony is incredible! Thank you for sharing that.
I was wondering...what you wrote above...do you believe you were saved during that time?...if you had died then, do you believe you were heaven or hell bound?

finally God put me in a postion which i am so thankful for... that made me totally alone and i had to depend on Him He was my only chance , my only hope..

Me too!! This happened to me... it's the worst and BEST thing to ever happen to a person! Would you agree!?

It chills me to the bone to think about all the lost church goers. They are the hardest to witness to (well, friends and family aren't a picnic either! LOL)

Do you witness? Do you use your testimony if you do?

[jickes]

What a testimony. You have made my morning. Thank You

[MarvelousMom]

Have you lost hope?
Has everything you've tried failed?
Will you be willing to try just one more thing?

Here's a LINKto help you find Jesus.

[Schmize]

Lookingfor him,

I can completely relate!!! I have had conversations with my mom repeatedly about why I could not feel him even though I had repeatedly "done" what I thought I was supposed to do to be saved, born again. Yet nothing happened.

Really I had just given up. I thought it was never going to happen to me and that I was not written in the book of life and destined to be seperated from God forever. A rather depressing thought, given I have read and understood what is in store for those who do not have Jesus in thier life.

Recently I have responded to the gentle call of the Holy Spirit. This is what I did. I began reading Billy Graham. This guy has been given a tremendous gift "FOR THE FATHER". Here is the key, "for". Billy showed me that SIN is what seperates me from Father/Jesus/Spirit. He also helped me to understand what sin is, Sin is diferent than sins. I urge you to get Billy's "How to Be Born Again" book. He does a better job than I do explaining it. He wrote it in 1974 I think. Sin is equal to rebellion. Sins are the things we do to seperates us from God. Sin = rebellion...this is where I felt the tickle in my brain. there is only one source for the rebellion against God, satan. He is the source for sin. He seperates us from God. Our sins can so harden our hearts that we may never turn towards God. This is the worse case scenario, do not be disheartened.

The penalty for rebellion is death. God the Father sent his son Jesus to pay this price for us, me and you. See Jesus is God! God sent himself to pay our price!!!!!

Further, we don't have to get "cleaned up" before we are born again. We would not even get close to clean enough. Look at scripture about the mob that brought a prostitute before Jesus. She definately had no time for a "self cleansing" before she stood before God. Yet he forgave her right there!!! Why?

Back to the Key, "for". I kept trying to be saved for me, me, me. Mainly because I did not want to miss out on eternity, selfish. I, I, I, Me, Me, Me. It wasn't until I realized that I can only be saved by the Glory Of God the Father/Son/Spirit FOR the Glory of God the Father/Son/Spirit that it happened. I alone do not deserve it. But because of the Son dying in my Place I can get it by simply believing in and for His glory not mine.

All of my sins and the hardening of my heart shattered in one instant!

hope that helps. I am new at this and left out a bunch of stuff for brevity.

S

[mizbayakh]

Back to the Key, "for". I kept trying to be saved for me, me, me. Mainly because I did not want to miss out on eternity, selfish. I, I, I, Me, Me, Me. It wasn't until I realized that I can only be saved by the Glory Of God the Father/Son/Spirit FOR the Glory of God the Father/Son/Spirit that it happened. I alone do not deserve it. But because of the Son dying in my Place I can get it by simply believing in and for His glory not mine.

All of my sins and the hardening of my heart shattered in one instant!

hope that helps. I am new at this and left out a bunch of stuff for brevity.

S

That is awesome and beautiful!! God Bless!!

May I repost this part on a blog on myspace regarding salvation?
I think you worded it so perfectly!!

[AndCanItBe]