Jesus knows my heart

Jesus knows my heart

Postby AngieKat on Sat Mar 27, 2004 7:01 am

Hi everyone,<br>
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I was a bit depressed this morning. Had some issues I was thinking about. I really would like to move into a larger house with a gas oven. This may sound wierd to some of you but I can't stand cooking on an electric oven. Plus my kitchen does not have enough storage and I have to keep the extra food and cookware in a room off the back of the house. I have to trudge through the snow and ice to get to it in the winter. I know, "Poor Angie, at least you have the food to cook and the electricity and pots and pans to cook your food on!" I know I say it to myself all the time. Be greatful for what the Lord has given you.<br>
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We could afford a new home. I have asked my husband about it so many times I can't count. "Lets add on," I say. I even draw a sketch of what to do. " Let's go look in this neighborhood, I saw a sign on the road." But he has no enthusiasm for this. He goes along but I have to put most if not all the energy into it. It frustrates me. He is content where we are. I am not. I stay home all day and have to organize this house to the best of my ability. Its 1500 sq ft and we have three kids. Yes I know. Be thankful that you have a house. Yes I know. I struggle with contentment daily.<br>
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I ask my husband to pray about this issue with me. He is not the spiritual leader that I need, and here is where I get to my praise. My husband will pray with me a few times a year at my urging. Somehow it doesn't feel like he is my spiritual leader. I have read the parts in the Bible that talk about submitting to your husband. I try but he doesn't do things that cause me to submit much and when I need the leader he is supposed to be, he isn't. Hence it led to my depression this morning. Why can't he understand what I need? I tell him. Believe me I Tell Him. But he doesn't respond unless I make him. So. . . . I console myself with this. <br>
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The Lord is my ultimate spiritual leader. Only the Lord knows my heart, my frustration and He is my comfort. I love Him for listening to my complaints and my sadness and guiding me through my depression.<br>
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I know my husband nor I am perfect. Just wanted to clarify that this wasn't a husband bashing thread! Just wanted to point out how I feel about the Lord's perfection and His ability to meet all my needs!<br>
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Angie <p></p><i>Edited by: <A HREF=http://pub149.ezboard.com/bherbsdiscussionboard.showUserPublicProfile?gid=angiekat@herbsdiscussionboard>AngieKat</A> at: 3/27/04 4:19 pm<br></i>
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He is faithful

Postby AngieKat on Thu Apr 08, 2004 12:34 pm

We went looking at houses last staurday. Two actually. ifelt really good about the second, and my husband agreed to put our house up and make an offer. I'm not stressed at all. I know the Lord will handle the details and work it out whether this house is for us or not. <br>
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***** Praise God for His faithfulness to His children! ****<br>
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Angie <p></p><i></i>
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Re: He is faithful

Postby habakkuk15 on Fri Apr 09, 2004 7:21 am

Dear AngieKat<br>
I certainly am resonating with regard to your concern for your husband Steven. I feel for your burdent to be a wife who obeys the Lord. I can only guess how hard it is to be submissive to a husband who does not understand his responsibility to be a spiritual leader in Christ.<br>
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I can tell you that this is a burden that I carry: to be a responsible spiritual leader. My wife is a godly woman, who loves the Lord with all her heart. Her name is Mary. Before she was saved four yrs ago, she was already a devout Roman Catholic who truly loved God but was not born again. I was a protestant who had an intellectal belief in Christ but was not truly born of the Spirit. Through a rather complicated set of circumstances I was indeed born-again.<br>
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I was really not a very nice person. Even though, I did not physically strike my wife, I was very mean. I used to blame here for everything, when all she ever did for me was show me love. I was an alcoholic, but Jesus cured me, not through the 12-step program, but through the One Way program, repentance! My alcoholic behavior was quite out of control. I lost jobs over it, and people did not like me. They told my wife she ought to leave me and I guess that's where we were heading.<br>
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But then Jesus saved me. And He started changing me. It all did not happen overnight but little by little Jesus changed me. And is still changing me. That's when my wife said to me. "I don't know what what happened to you, but I like it!" Three months later my wife accepted Jesus. We went to a little storefront Pentecostal church where everyone was born-again and spirit-filled Catholics, that really loved Jesus, including the pastor.<br>
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My wife said to me, (before she got saved), "You can go to church if you want to, but I am a Catholic and I will never convert!" But one day, she came to my church and never stopped attending. She said that she noticed everyone had Bibles, but she did not have one herself. Could I please go get her one and not the King James? I got her a New Living Translation and said, "Honey, why don't you read to me and I will brush her hair." This went on for a while and one day we got to Jeremiah 44, where God says that He considers the worship of the queen of heaven an abomination. Mary let out a huge gasp. I said, "what's wrong?" She said that's what they do in the catholic church. She asked me should we get rid of the Mary statues and figurines. I told her that I could not tell her to do that: it was between her and God. She eventually did, but it was a decision she made, not me.<br>
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Dear AngieKat, after Mary got saved, she got so filled with the Spirit (though she never spoke in tongues), she manifested such a purity of heart and soul, I realized I would have to get up on a step ladder just to shine her shoes.<br>
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Now, how was I supposed to be a spiritual leader to a woman like that? But the Bible says that it was my duty as a husband in Christ. <br>
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My wife is a beautiful Spirit-filled woman in Christ, who does defer to me. She defers to my role as spiritual head. I do my best. But often it is not enough. I am still working out a lot of things, and my wife is patient with me, even though I can tell that I wear on her nerves at times.<br>
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I am grateful to God for saving me and showing me the way to our Lord Messiah Jesus. And I am grateful to God for giving me a kind loving wife who loves Jesus with all her heart.<br>
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You seem like a very beautiful woman in Christ. You have a sensitive spirit and seem to want the best for your family.<br>
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I will continue to pray for your husband, Steven. Out of respect, I say that the role of spiritual head of family is quite a responsibilty. We husbands need to rely on God and for the leading of the Holy Spirit, and to lead our families in lifting up the Name of Christ. Without God it is impossible, but with God, all things are possible.<br>
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God bless you, AngieKat. May the Lord God overshadow you with His wings and hold you close to His side that you will His hear His heartbeat, and may that be your comfort.<br>
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Respectfully,<br>
Johnny <br>
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Edited for typing. <p></p><i>Edited by: <A HREF=http://pub149.ezboard.com/bherbsdiscussionboard.showUserPublicProfile?gid=habakkuk15>habakkuk15</A> at: 4/9/04 12:27 pm<br></i>
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Awsome testemony

Postby highdesert ITD on Fri Apr 09, 2004 8:10 pm

"Habakkuk15";<br>
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That was a GREAT witness! I have a dear brother in the Lord that that is married to a catholic woman and suffers daily. She considers him a heathen and tells everyone he is a devil worshiper. She is very demented and needs help, we are praying but nothing has changed in three years. This brother loves the Lord and tries to be patient but is growing weary. Please pray for him, his name is Drew, and his wife is Shanna. Your witness really has me jazzed! That is so cool! God Bless you both! Praise the Lord!!<br>
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Re: Awsome testemony

Postby PAM on Sun Apr 11, 2004 6:38 am

<!--EZCODE IMAGE START--><img src="http://www.planet-smilies.de/finger/finger_051.gif"/><!--EZCODE IMAGE END--> Habakkuk wow!<br>
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Praying for your family AngieKat! <p></p><i></i>
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Husbands

Postby AngieKat on Sun Apr 11, 2004 2:46 pm

Thank you Habbakuk,<br>
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I really appreciate your sharing that testimony. I realize it is difficult for my husband as he is very quiet and unassuming and I can be quite the opposite. I am more of a take charge kind of person, lets ge the ball rolling! He is content to stay put! But he has a wonderful heart. I need to learn how to express my needs with gentleness and patience. I'm working on it! <br>
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Thank you everyone for your blessings and prayers. It means a lot!<br>
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Angie<br>
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P.S. I grew up Catholic. My mother purchased a statue of Mary for me when I was a child. I kept it for years for sentimental reasons. My mother died in 1997. I finally threw the statue away a year or so ago, when I couldn't stand the thought that I might be putting Mary before God. <p></p><i>Edited by: <A HREF=http://pub149.ezboard.com/bherbsdiscussionboard.showUserPublicProfile?gid=angiekat@herbsdiscussionboard>AngieKat</A> at: 4/11/04 5:50 pm<br></i>
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Re: Husbands

Postby mrshalfcent on Sun Apr 11, 2004 3:19 pm

you guys are making me cry! what a blessing! all of you...hab...amazing story...angie...I will pray for you and your hubby...<br>
well...(sniff...sniff...blowing nose...sniff )<br>
you all are so awesome.<br>
blessings<br>
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house contracts

Postby AngieKat on Mon Apr 19, 2004 7:18 am

Just thought I'd update. We have a contract in the works, actually two! One to buy and one to sell. Looks like I may be getting my prayers answered! Thank you God!<br>
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Angie <p></p><i></i>
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Re: house contracts

Postby Faithful Witness for him on Mon Apr 19, 2004 7:45 am

Wow<br>
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Wow to Habbukuk and that testimony. It takes a long time to get rid of the world's view and take on Christ's view concerning what a marriage is.<br>
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Angie<br>
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Congradulations on your current venture. God is indeed merciful and faithful to us, even when we sometimes are not to Him (Speaking of myself, not you per se).<br>
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What an AWESOME God we serve!!! <p>Jared Albrecht<br>
Water To Wine Ministries<br>
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Angie

Postby Joya on Mon Apr 19, 2004 8:09 am

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